Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Stressed!!!

I don't know why, but I feel so stressed today! Nothing is going wrong, I think it will be hard for me to relax until this dossier is done and sent off to my agency. Next week will be stressful to get everything to happen at the right times in the right order to pull off getting my dossier done. I think what else that is stressing me out is that I still can't get a handle on what exactly is the process once my dossier is done. I don't think I will be able to get as many details as I did with the Uzbek program, which is hard for me. Even if the news wasn't always good, I always felt like I knew what was going on and what would happen (or we hoped would happen) next.

Then on the other hand, so many of my adoption friends have been waiting and waiting and waiting to travel, that I feel so selfish when I feel like this. I am working on being content and it looks like I have a long way to go!

7 comments:

Jeff and Abby said...

Hey- it's OK to feel stressed. You knew it woudn't all be fun...you're handling it great though. Hang in there- I do know exactly what you mean though- I feel like I'm walking into this huge giant hairball. It's like you just don't want to screw something up- and by screwing up I mean like thinking you have everything ready, but forget one thing- and that one thing takes 2 months to get. Err..yeah, frustrating. Anyway, hang in there- you'll get your sweet little girl in God's perfect time.

Nichole said...

Thanks, Abby! You said it perfectly. I so want to get done quickly so hopefully we our daughter comes home quicker. But, I also just want to have all this paperwork done, so my brain isn't constantly spinning about what I need to do next! Thanks for the support and understanding.

smctiver said...

One dossier is stressful enough, let alone two!

There's a spot reserved in Heaven for you guys!

Amanda said...

Nichole I think stress must have been in the air yesterday!! I hope you are feeling revived today. I am praying the rest of your dossier will go as smoothly as picking up a copy of your house deed. With every paper your daughter is getting closer :)

Dani said...

Nichole, I've done two dossiers and I know exactly what you're feeling. I get obsessive with things thinking that I'm forgetting something or I've left something out so I go thru things what seems to be 1000 to find that nothing is missing and everything is perfect. Know this, your child will come to you when it's time not before and never too late. I know that this process seems almost cruel but it definitely makes once stronger and more patient in the long run. When I was doing my two I thought I was going insane and I swear my blood pressure went up and my hair was turning gray!! So, good luck I'm sure it'll be fine and, of course, will say prays for you that things go smoothly and quickly for you, I know what the wait is like since we're waiting for two....

Holli said...

a hairball.... the girl needs to get rid of her cats!:)
I am so sorry you are feeling stressed....wish I was there to give you a hug. Better yet I wish you, Abs and Joy were HERE!

Rachel said...

I just learned this same lesson. Be content. Don't complain. Those are my biggies today!
Thanks for posting!